I keep a notebook,
where I write ideas about blogging and while there were a lot of these ideas
written down, I had no power to write in the past year or so, the muse did not
visit me and I was stuck in the peculiar, the everyday, the little things, the
wrong emotions.
One day, I was
talking to my best friend, Nina, and I told her “Nina, what I really desire is
to become this calm and serene person who will be so kind and give so much love
to everybody, without being hurt by deleterious and harmful behaviours - just
keep being in a positive state of calmness.”
And that was my first
step to a better, more informed me. While until then, I could not believe how
people could have behaved in the past, that was the time when I accepted that
the past year was quite ugly. Worse than what others may have experienced, but
also better than many others too. And then, I was grateful. I was grateful for
all the good people in my life, my good health, my inner strength… I was
grateful for so many and so much!
Of course things did
not become suddenly amazing nor am I at the moment the calmest person on earth.
The same people kept on behaving in the same way, and while I knew that I
needed to change my attitude in order to become the person I aspired to be, I
did not know how. I thought to stop talking to them. Yet, I couldn’t. With some
people you have to keep a relationship, be that professional reasons, be that
social pressure. Then I thought not to care about them. But that’s not who I
am. The authentic me always cares, always gives.
Being trained in
identifying patterns as a researcher, I start noticing that two specific words
kept on appearing everyday around me: in discussions, talks, blogs and even
songs. The more these words were appearing, the more I realised that the key
towards achieving my goal for inner happiness was to “let go”. Letting go of
the bad experiences, the sad feelings, the deleterious relationships. So I
start reading, researching and reflecting on ways to let go. As soon as I had
something concrete, something –indeed- helpful, I thought I should write it
down – in that way, I could also help others in this process.
I opened my notebook after a year to write down these ideas.
Flicked through the
very last written page and to my amazement, I read:
“Write a blog about letting go”.
I could not believe in my eyes! A year ago, I have written down my spiritual
lesson, the key for my freedom. And then I forgot all about it.
Oh fruitful journey,
inspiring and glorious life, how blessed am I to have been given such a
practical experience for such a post. How grateful am I for the past, for the
good and the ugly, for such a wonderful lesson.
I am all content and
happy and my authentic me; loving life and the people in it.
There is so much that needs to be let gone. Every single day. Sometimes having a child helps: Let everything else go, what really matters is the child. But then, why keep the weight on your shoulders? Well said "With some people you have to keep a relationship"... Margie, you are really lucky to be the person you are! Don't let "deleterious" people help you. The first to be hurt by their poison is themselves.
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Thank you, darling... :) I can't wait to see Boo too!!! Nona is coming!!! xxx
DeleteBravo sou!!! A gratitude journal will help you. Write down five things every nite....that you were grateful for in the day. It can be ANYTHING....especially little things that make you smile or feel good. This practice helps you to focus on positive things and after awhile of doing this......it should help any negativity go away. Also, you have to remember....when people say things....it's THEIR business...NOT yours!!! It's a hard practice to learn.....though if you keep finding things to be grateful for, and try not to let anything anyone says bother you.....you'll be on to finding and living the authentic you!! :)
ReplyDeleteSusan, thanks so much for this! I think a gratitude journal is a wonderful idea!! It helps grow inner strength, which in turn helps in neglecting others' negative energy! I do it more or less everyday verbally, but writing it down sounds more powerful! I will give it a go and let you know :) :)
DeleteYaar, wonderful thought. Let it go is the foundation of real enlightenment !!! so let us let it go !!!
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